Waving Goodbye to one Dream…

This a.m., the man-child-unit and I hopped in the pick-em-over (truck) and headed out to Mama’s Bear’s – to clear out trash/old stuff –

Since our county had a free dump-off site for Spring Cleaning…

And Mama Bear will be moving from her home of the past nearly 50 years, this summer…

Made sense to take advantage of free dumpster space –

Had no problemo, whatsoever, with loading up the old, rotting, sagging mattresses that had been collecting dust and who-knows-what-else, for decades – as I can’t think of a single project I could use them for –

It was another matter to get rid of my multi-gallon wine jar with caps collection, painstakingly shared, recycled from friends for over 9 years –

See, I had hoped, one day, to make my own beer, mead, root beer, fermented beverages – and why on earth go buy new supplies when I can just save ’em along the way AND do something nice for the landfills?

Sigh – but, as happens when you have an old, spacious space – that you don’t enter every day, I had way more than I could ever fill in a lifetime or use at once, unless I went ‘industrial’ level, and I’m betting regulations wouldn’t let me re-use ’em – LOL

So I loaded up 14 boxes of nice, heavy wine bottles – (I did keep 3 boxes of the smaller bottles – going to make garden solar lights out of them…  :)

But, silly as it seems –

It felt like saying goodbye to a dream –

Even though I have enough to still do small home batches AND to experiment with different recipes –

I’m not certain if the pang of knowing soon, the home of my childhood will no longer be a place I visit is being re-directed OR if I’m really, just an unredeemable pack-rat at heart –

I’m betting on the pack-rat status being the true one – –

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Waiting to be noticed

Says it all – me thinks!:)

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nicks 051“…. and it happens every day,” he said as we stood on the moors watching the miracle of a sunrise. We had watched the sun set too the night before. Two moments of sheer beauty… There is no reason for sunrises and sunsets…. I am not speaking scientifically, though science only gives an explanation; no real reason why the creation of the world should hold such unnecessary beauty…. why the sky should be painted with fire and gold every day, or why mists should shroud the valleys in so much softness, or frost encase the world in crystalline loveliness.

dawn 034These things are natural processes with a scientific basis we can explain. But why so much beauty? Why is the world such a breathtakingly lovely place? Why do we get the miracle of a gilded sky or the softness of summer rain sparkling on the grass?

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Even stranger… why do we…

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38 Hours and Counting…

…Only 34 hours left to go – till life gets better –

Nothing big, or earth shattering – I simply quit smoking yesterday morning, and the first 72 hours, for a nic-addict, such as myself, feels rather like hades on earth – without the heat – and ugly horned fellas (unless, of course, I look in the mirror….)

And this morning, a tad before the first 24 hours were up… I awoke to the dark, moist earth – kissed by heavy fog/frost – but a warm spring sun that left the birds singing to the heavens, and the ‘fresh as a daisy’ smell over my lil’ place –

Why I was surprised at how fast things happened, do not ask me – Spring surprises me every year, even though I should know better –

On Monday, I was gifted a belated Easter Gift – the first hint that I’d better be getting my sprouting potatoes from last month/last year in the ground AND be checking on weeding activities –

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Spring Herald

This a.m., I did some early weeding, and wondered, just why, none of the annual Welsh Onions, Jerusalem Artichokes or Wild Lettuces had shown up yet, while so many other things are waking up:

Rhubarb - not a big surprise - but still -where's the lettuce?!?

Rhubarb – not a big surprise – but still -where’s the lettuce?!?

And of course, I really ought to get my ‘winter blankies’ pulled off beds, but there’s plenty of time, and who knows, for sure, how many blizzards are left in the season?

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Irises with winter blanket not cleared yet

If the spring storms and frosts aren’t too heavy/cold, maybe I’ll have a tree full of purple, here, soon:

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Lilacs building their buds to burst forth in wonder!

Wouldn’t ya know?  The wild roses and golden currants planted last spring, around this time, are waking up, big time, already:

Wild Rose - no, it wasn't dancing, I simply didn't take a good picture! :)

Wild Rose – no, it wasn’t dancing, I simply didn’t take a good picture!:)

More of the Golden Currant plants that suffered from lack of supplemental water/weeding last July, while I recovered from the accident, actually survived, than I thought would - -

More of the Golden Currant plants that suffered from lack of supplemental water/weeding last July, while I recovered from the accident, actually survived, than I thought would – –

I would have taken a picture of day lilies and tulips – the native grasses starting to green up and blessing the land of beige and gray, I’ve looked at for oh-so-long – but when I went out to take pictures, this afternoon, to share with you the beauty of this morning’s ‘get rid of angst, by touching the earth…” – well – I had to hurry –

For don’t ya know – the it was cold and windy as the next snow storm rolled in –

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Friday will truly be a big TGIF, this week – for the physiological and brain chemistry changes in the first 72 hours after a nic-addict quits feeding their habit is one, great, big roller-coaster ride – and no matter how good it is for me, ultimately, the first 72 makes me wonder who wants to live that long, anyways?!?

Thank goodness for Starburst flavored Jelly Beans – for you know, the dark ones are grape flavored – not black licorice –

Yes… I’m counting my many blessings…

Happy Hump-Day Wednesday!:)

If Wishing made My dreams come true –

Today, BIG time, I was reminded, again, about connections, time, memories, connections – and how they all mean so much to this (yes me) human – from oh-so-many-connections!

And so, I share one of my fave songs – that I haven’t recently shared – because for so long, I thought it only spoke to romantic love –

That scary territory I’m still not healed enough to even think about venturing into to – and would, in the end, be a hypocrite if I wrote about, really – thought I….

BUT also, because no matter who labels what connections as ‘what”, today, during my ‘trying to get caught up’ with those I appreciate, ever so much, here and there –

I was reminded, once again, in so many ways over the memories of the last few months of my life, where others of the flock, said to me, in their own way  –

“You, right now, is who I would spend an eternity going through time with – cuz you’re fun to travel with!”

My own take on the matter, and still learning/growing, and I (and or you) might change our minds – down the road – but, for me, there is always enough time for the ‘important’ things in life, even when I, personally, forget the importance of showing up every day to cheer you, a beloved of my world, on, in your journey – do you know that’s how I feel when I realize I haven’t logged in and kept up with social media posts?

Did you know I take your cyber world life as important as if you were my next door neighbor?

Did you know, sometimes, even with my failings of time management, you probably know more about me and I about you than my nearest physical neighbors do?

I’m wondering – do you?  Cuz, I’m thinking about such things, just now – and wondered if you understand what a difference you’ve made – for another – recently –

Did you know you were that important?  Or are you just cringing and hoping I didn’t tag you in this missive that forever ties you, cyber wise, to crazy lady?!?  LOL

Either or all ways – You hopefully know who you are, and who I am – and ….

Thank you – for the gift of Time & Spirit you gave to me, today – all 3446 of you – (I exaggerate, but I trust you to know what I meant –:)

:)

Wild Geese

Yes!

Teacher as Transformer

Mary Oliver is one of my favourite poets. I find her poems call me to spend time, reflect quietly, and read them anew many times. I think what I consistently get out of her poetry is that we are not alone in the world.

We live together, but it is not just a human world. It is a world full of other beings, objects, and roles that shape our lives and we, in turn, shape the world. Most of the time, our relationships with the world, others, and things is unconscious. The world exists out there somewhere in taken-for-granted ways.

When we are mindfull and present, we notice the world. Mary Oliver uses the words harsh and exciting, but we are not accustomed to the novelty that continuously emerges and, when it calls, it seems harsh. As we live more fully, the world calls to us and we hear it…

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Real

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I adopted my own version of real and reality many years ago – and didn’t until much later, have it eloquently put to words, via a documentary done in 1985 – which I shall paraphrase below –

(From James Burke’s “The Day the Universe Changed” series, opening scene, he stands with the sun coming up behind him…)

“Supposedly, someone once went up to the philosopher Wittgenstein and said,

‘What a bunch of moron’s people in the Middle Ages were to see the dawn every morning and think the sun was going around the earth, when any school child knows the earth goes around the sun and it doesn’t take too many brains to know that.”

To which Wittgenstein replied,

‘Yes, but… I wonder what it would have looked like if the sun had been going around the earth?’

Point being, it would have looked exactly the same.   We see what our knowledge tells us we are seeing and that’s what this series is about – how what you think the Universe (reality) is and how you react to it in everything you do, depends upon what you know about it – what we know today is different from what we knew yesterday – and we were different, too.  And when your knowledge changes, for you, the universe changes”

Now, I like to use ‘real’ and ‘universe’ interchangeably – and I like to learn more – so I can support the ‘real’ things I like in everything I do and find solutions for the ‘realities’ I’m not so fond of –:)

A friend and I were once talking about reality – she said,

“The more I learn, the fluid and ever-changing reality becomes – and, at times, it’s rather scary…”

And, yes, it is, but alongside the fear, lies also the hope of a better reality – and to me, as I expand my knowledge, I am better equipped to make my immediate environment a product of me and the realities I’ve embraced – AND to withstand the challenges when in realities I do not embrace –:)

What was the line from Robert Fulghum?  Oh yes, (paraphrased, though it’s killing me to not look these up to make sure they are exactly and properly quoted…  LOL – but Da Rules are Da Rules!)

“I guess that what liberation and freedom are all about – to be free of the things we don’t like, so we can be bound by those things we do…”

(You, too, can participate in Stream of Consciousness Saturday – hop on over to Linda G Hill’s house, get your badge and keep an eye out on Fridays for the Prompt!)

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Maybe I’m Narcissistic – Maybe Not…

Over the past few weeks, given my social media sphere – lots of shares/blogs/memes have come onto my radar re: The Narcissistic Personality –

So I dutifully went and checked out the symptoms – and, alas, I’m probably one – for two main reasons, given my own lil brain network –

  1. I often turn the conversation back to moi and my journey
  2. I’m certain I’m right and the flood of posts on this condition is just pre-cursor to Big Pharma pill that will cure this failing –

Yes, I engage in turning the conversation around to me and my experience in Life, often –

I REALLY and TRULY thought that by sharing and making myself vulnerable to ridicule/judgement, I was also reaching out to another who is struggling just now – with a topic I see how I’ve had some experience with –

Nope – I’m just an egomaniac – (these two terms are interchangeable, right?)

Secondly, I’m convinced when a whole bunch of things make their way onto my radar, either a lot of folks are hurting and/or a new product launch is underway –

I have my own little ways of gauging such things – maybe they are right – maybe they are wrong – maybe they harm, maybe they help –

All I can say is, until I’m aware enough to know where I’m failing – well, new stuff? That is up for grabs as far as hard data goes?

Well, I’ll experiment on myself and then tell you about the experiment if it comes up in conversation with you –

Even if that means, I’m always talking about myself – –:)

Just puttin’ it out there to the flock I already know I like to fly with –:)

Two different views on the Science of Persuasion – Short take, first, longer version, second – I have some angst with both takes – on different levels – but once I ponder it all – I will let you know – OR – I’ll make up my own preferred story and you can buy into or not – cuz, I may be all about my choices/experience – but I don’t insist you are too –:)