Confessions of a Smoker, Continuing Saga…

I first ordered my E-cig supplies in January – I faithfully reported through February – – now for the update.

March – still purchasing regular cigs (when batteries don’t charge, liquid doesn’t arrive, etc.)

Still prefer the E-cig, but collapse into analogs when I’m under stress and can’t get my nicotine fix from E-cigs.   This month to date, I’ve purchased 3 packs of regular cigs – – on the plus side, I only did so because my batteries weren’t holding their charge (batteries are supposed to last between 2-3 months, I’m on month 3) and there were a few times I found myself faced with huge stressors and no e-cig pacifier to calm myself with.  (Lest you think me melodramatic, since I posted last, I’m getting divorced, (NOT related to me quitting smoking, I must tell you), moving, starting back to work full-time and trying to reorganize my world view so I help people instead of scaring them….Does that qualify as stressors?  Or is that just normal life?   Cuz if it is, I’m convinced I’ll be a nicotine addict for life…)  I somehow manage to keep some wits about me when my little microcosm is saturated in nicotine…

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One of my local haunts started carrying the E-cigs, then pulled them from the shelves.   According to the store manager, they were pulled because there were “unidentified health risks”.  According to one of the clerks, they were pulled because they weren’t selling. (No surprise there – the local options are 5x or more the cost of online options AND cost more than regular cigs, to boot.)   My cynical heart tends to think the clerk’s story is more accurate than the manager’s.   Except for my little peppermint oil substitution fiasco, I can definitely report my health benefits since moving to predominate E-cig consumption for my nicotine fix are many.

Although I’m bummed that I still get my “lack of nicotine space-cadet and irritable wench” episodes, they are less severe and fewer and farther between.   I can now go 8 hours without any form of nicotine and easily resist the urge to grab an Uzi and climb the nearest water tower for great target options.    You think I’m joking?

On the down side, while I know I’m using less E-juice and buying fewer regular cigarettes, I still recognize one fact: I’m still a nicotine addict.   If my current purchase of e-juice lasts till June (I love bulk buying) and I do not purchase more than 5 packs of cigarettes per month (on par or below there), then I have cut my nicotine intake in half.  Progress has been made –  just not as fast as I would like.   Still, I’m not currently willing to endure the singular hell nicotine-free life offers me right now.  Que Sera, Sera.

Another link for those of you interested:  For batteries, refillable cartridges, etc, I now order from: LiteCig USA.  Still ordering e-liquid from Innovapor

Not sorry I made the switch – happy with return on investment and VERY HAPPY with my health results. That’s the update for now.

3 thoughts on “Confessions of a Smoker, Continuing Saga…”

  1. Tamrah, I so enjoy reading your blogs but I REALLY MISS YOU on Facebook, I wish you would consider coming back.

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    1. Thank you so much for reading. In regards to FB, There have been a few times (I can remember 3, which strictly scientifically speaking means about once per month and government funded research means 3, 567 times every day) that I considered reactivating. The only time it crossed my mind, truthfully, was when I thought, “What an awesome documentary. I really must share this info! Oh, wait, do I have time to write an article? It was so much easier to just post the link and ‘Watch This!’ on FB”

      So here’s the ensuing mind chatter from my brain committee when I’ve thought about going back on my commitment and rejoining FB:

      “Those who would like the documentary have probably already watched it – or they subscribe to our blog and will find out about our thoughts anyway.”
      “Those who don’t want to watch it would rather not have their phone screen clogged up with TamJo Facebook posts, saying: “OMG! You have to see this.” If they were interested in what we’re doing, they would have asked us to send a “recommended reading/watching list” to them each week….
      “Why FB? They never gave us enough room to say what we really wanted to. Isn’t that why we got a blog?”
      “Day by day, you are reconnecting with those you really want to and isn’t coffee, a phone call or private email much more satisfying than the one liner FB post that says, “OMG! I’m so happy/scared/bummed/”? Although we tried to keep up with everyone and post support when it was obvious someone needed help with crying, celebrating or kicking some arse, as a group, it wasn’t totally fulfilling. The other options leave all of us feeling more connected. Plus, it’s hard to give someone a black eye via FB….
      AND last, but by no means, least:
      “What?!? Concede Defeat?!? Never! By gummy, FB with it’s gazillion users is one day going to have to admit I’m right, they’re wrong and when they crawl on their knees, apologizing and fixing their auto-opt-in fiascos, I shall once again grace them with my royal presence.”

      May I point out, the last brain committee member is one I think most of us have, lurking around waiting to appear when the rest of the committee decides something is worth being righteously indignant over.

      These kind of brain members are probably why there are still so many wars, poverty, famine and the like…..I’m quite aware of my human flaw of wanting to be right….and on certain subjects, to renege on my vow feels like hypocrisy.
      I can be a real stubborn mule….
      I will also point out, this reply is proof of the daily torture schizophrenics go through – – – did I ever tell you apparently nicotine helps lessen the effects of schizophrenia? So here I sit with my e-cig, self-medicating and waxing eloquent when I should have just said:

      “Thank you for reading. I miss you too. Thanks for taking the time to comment and send me an email. And just when, exactly, are we going to have that jungle juice party?”

      LOL!
      Tamrah Jo

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