My Community

Today was the anniversary of Morgan’s passing – I knew it was coming – I wrote what I’d learned in the last year – I tapped, I meditated, I took extra self-care time, I planned my week out – I signed up for the Hay House World Summit – I had a plan!

It still sucked – and worse, one of my very bestest buds from high school – you know the one you went fishing, car racing and drinking beer with? (yes, I was never a Girly Girl and no, we never raced cars and fished at the same time) – passed away yesterday – –

The local rumor mill has him either doing yard work or playing with his kids in his back yard – collapsed – DOA –

It has shocked the community, because he is too young… I’m thinking about all the relatives I cared for and watched die from cancer and silently hoping when I go, I go like he did.


So now, June 2nd is when my ‘too young’ friend died, June 3rd is when my ‘too young’ son died, June 7th is a birthday we no longer celebrate and Father’s day is this month, as well…

My dad died in April – June is still when I mourn him – because Hallmark reminds me I no longer have a Dad to give 4 fantabulous cards too, because I couldn’t pick just one…

I found a card one year – staged in circa 1800’s mode – stern looking males in black, non-smiling females in full skirts – no one is smiling, because everyone is tired of sitting still with their head in a vise for the 20 minutes required for that era of photography….  The inside reads

“Never is there as much fun, laughter and gaiety as our family get-togethers”

I bought  it and mailed it, because I knew Dad would get it.

When he passed away, in the bottom drawer of his dresser, there was the pile of flannel handkerchiefs I made for him when chemo, radiation and oxygen therapy made his nose/skin so sore – -and this card.   I never signed it, because I told him he might like to give it to someone else – he kept it and never gave it away.   That drawer also held the wallet and belt I made for him when I was nine years old and in 4H leather crafting.  Mom said he always saved them – saying they were ‘too pretty to use’ – whether true or not, I care not….


I  vowed not to come to WordPress these 10 days – simply because while I strive to be authentic in my blog – there are times I’m so down, I just don’t think it’s a good idea to post.  The world is full enough of the dark, bleak and gruesome – why add to it?

But I had to post tonight – because I just finished the interview at Hay House with Lissa Rankin.

Who Is Awesome.

The biggest thing I took away from her talk was the need for support while healing.   I realized so many of my traumas have been traversed alone.   While surrounded by those I chose to support, but did not ask anything of, because I figured they had enough on their plate without me asking for things from them…

I found myself alone while living through my worst nightmares…and,at some point, I got so used to it, my new story was,

“I’ve done it alone before, I can do so again.”

But tonight, while pondering this decision, I realized that for months, I have not been alone.

Because of you.

So just a quick log-in and post to say, Thank You, for being my support network.

For believing in my dreams and aspirations.

For being willing to ‘visit’ via comments way past your bedtime and mine…

For admitting sometimes you’re tired of it all, too…

And for wondering how I’m doing, when I’m too quiet for too long…

For validating me through listening…

You, bloggers, are my community.  You inspire me, encourage me and support me in a hundred different ways.

We may never meet face to face, but I have to let you know…

You Made A Difference – For Me – and I can never thank you enough.


34 thoughts on “My Community”

    1. Life got in the way. Posts scanty for over year now, given previous stats! But thank u so much for dropping in and taking the time to say, “Hi! I remember you!” It is appreciated!

      Liked by 1 person

    1. Wow! Went and looked up information and definitely put learning Esperanto on the To-Do List! I’m not sure how successful my efforts will be, as I mangled my way through one year of Spanish and to this day, can only remember how to say:
      Thank You
      I love my little black dog
      I would like a hamburger, fries and beer, please.

      Oh – yes, I can still count to 10 in Espanol – 🙂


  1. Wow – what a hard month for you to slog through. I am glad that you felt able to write abut it , because it is sharing like that which makes this blogging community work. And sometimes, isn’t it easier to share with people you can’t see? I find it easier to be honest, no need to act cheery when you aren’t. So know that we are out hear, reading and caring.


    1. Thank you so much – I shudder to think how awful some days would be if there weren’t folks holding the light when I was stumbling in the dark! Thanks! 🙂


  2. I’m so sorry for your loss. *hugs*
    I’m happy that you can find support here, as I and so many others do in so many ways. I want you to know that I notice and appreciate the way you always strive to stay upbeat – something that some of us just can’t help doing, isn’t it? It’s good for we who do it too, I suppose.
    On that note, congratulations on your interview 🙂
    You are a truly special lady.


  3. Reblogged this on shamanictracking and commented:
    Community matters! Show some support for my brave Hero, TamrahJo. You will enjoy her posts written with such honesty that you will often have to… well… LAUGH (even when few tears in your eyes) xox


  4. Hey TamrahJo, just so you know I was thinking how I was going to miss you over the ten days… And even though I know how to keep in contact with you other than blogging, I was gonna give you time until you ‘show up’ again. And here you are 🙂 It really makes me happy that you could reach out! My strong and brave soul with an exquisite sense of humor 🙂
    Btw, thanks for reminding me about the Hay House event, although I have to admit I only listened to John Edward (on lindalitebeing’s recommendation) so far and really liked it. He seemed like a very down-to-earth psychic medium… rare species hahahaha
    Luv xox


    1. Thank you so much – for everything! I’ve listened to all from day 1, nearly all from day 2 and most from day 3 – there have been some I quit listening to part way through, because I was getting over inundated! But so far, I’ve really enjoyed all of them! Concentrating the healing ones first, then working through the rest – most interesting result so far from doing the ‘included exercises’ was on the Healing With Sound one – I can sing the note for a long time for the abdomen chakra and the heart chakra, but only last a second or two on the head chakra – so using the visualization you gave me and trying to get that energy to make it all the way to the top of my head and blow right through it to shine a white light out into the universe! LOL

      Hopefully soon, will have that portion of me ‘up to par’ – 😀


  5. You wrote equisetely about your journey. It is not negative. It did not depress me but your words lit a fire within me, rekindling mutal respect and affection for you, a lovely woman who is realizing that no one is an island unto themselves, that each one is a joy to each other in the communion of all humanity, community


Leave a Reply

Please log in using one of these methods to post your comment: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: