During certain times in my life, I have found myself stuck…
In exhaustion, recovery from illness, numbness, grief, anger, resentment, ingratitude on some fronts…
The worst portion, for me, is the moment I recognize I’m ‘stuck’ and the road that stretches before me that contains all kinds of recipes, adages, perspectives, or simple faith that in the end, don’t deliver what was ‘promised’ and the …dare I use the word? Despair that shows up, here and there, when I’ve done all I know, have researched, have tried to do for myself and find myself, still….
It’s Not Like I’m Working without Map or Net….
In various ways, I’ve lived long enough now, I have a slew of past memories of my own, stories & shares of others who walked the path I walk now, to refer back to –
And yet, just like online/printed maps don’t always show you that wonderful little burger place along side the road, or the little trail that veers off to visit a long ago shrine put up, so does each challenge and journey hold it’s surprises, detours and exploration….
And so, not feeling very creative or inspired, etc., I did decide to update my blog roll – –
I’m not sinking into quicksand or the depths of the bog/swamp I find myself in – I’m rather sitting, in the gloom of unknown pathways, rather peaceful and laid back – waiting for the light to shine on the correct path to try –
Meanwhile, I entertain myself – through work, home & household experiments/improvements, new recipes, learning new things, etc.
For in the end, when the way forward seems so dark and unknown and not really inspiring to me…..
The one thing I’ve learned to do, is wake up and do what is absolutely needed to be done, today, and keep myself entertained or exploring new thoughts/dreams/ways of doing things, until the way forth, appears – –
Alas, I’ve yet to tame my ‘Ms. Fix It’ and “Ms. Impatience” portions of me, and sometimes, even while wallowing in/sitting beside ‘Stuck’ to hear what he might have to tell me, I find myself wanting to resist and/or ‘hurry the process up’ –
Sadly, I KNOW better, but guess, some paths just circle around and around until one once more finds themselves at a fork in the road….
With one way dark, dim and the other shining forth beckoning one, “Pick Me!!! A Journey Awaits!”
Until then….I’ll just sit here, stuck, entertaining myself – – 😀
This coming week is American Thankgsiving. So many things in the world today, defy one’s own fortitude to fully find a ‘perspective’ one can be grateful for on many topics of concern –
But I’m Grateful for and Give Thanks for so many things – and, my ‘community here’ is one of the Top 5.
So Happy Thanksgiving, or (as seen, but cleaned up a bit, in a group I’m a part of) the European/English version of it:
“Happy We-Let-Those-Crazy-Loons-Form-Their-Own-Country and We Shall Wait and See Day”Signed – Countries with longer history than ours….