Decision Time arrives….Early!

After the storm that ‘was to be’ never really played out as predicted, here at BallyBin, we are ‘back to routine’ amidst perhaps 4-6″ inches of snowfall that has now been removed to growing areas, a clear driveway and opening highways surrounding us, even though wind in various areas of the plains means adverse visibility and driving conditions to the northeast of us.

The man-child went to work as usual –

Some of the poor, poor children (and their teachers!) in our state and areas affected, did not even get a snow day today.

Since ‘deal with COVID’ impacts last year means, the online systems are in place and some schools chose to say, “Yes, in-person closed, but hey! We’re doing e-Learning instead, so put away the sled, and get online to do your schoolwork”…

A sad, if small, testament to the unintended consequences of ‘rising to meet the current challenges’ that may have forever changed the beloved tradition of my childhood and adult working life – “SnowDay! Yay! A free unexpected mini-vacay day OR one less thing to wrangle today in addition storm survival/recovery”.

I digress from the Decision Report….

This morning I learned from friend (who I called to see if they were dug out yet, since they live north and in higher windswept potential area) and she, all vaccinated up, as she is older than I, inquired when I was scheduled to get my vaccine.

I laughed and said, probably not until next fall sometime…..

But, I hadn’t checked the news OR the state website since last Friday –

The day, when they announced phase 1B.4 of vaccination schedule, to start on March 19th – –

The phase which includes the following bullet point list of eligibility:

  • People age 50 and older.
  • Frontline essential workers.*
  • People with high risk conditions.
  • Continuation of operations for state government and continuity of local government.*

Because I’m over 50….

There is already initial urging from friends that I should go.

Now I must decide if I take place in the line, now, or wait.

Let Philosophy 101 Operations Begin!

I have, for myself, tried hard to apply the non-discrimination laws to my own life and decisions.

I’m also rather a fan of ability/meritocracy systems that aren’t silently ‘skewed’ behind the scenes by those who are greedy for their own gains and try to shove gifts and talents into a narrow mold of ‘deemed acceptable’.

Thus, just because I’m a certain race, gender, age, or know how to do some various things, I don’t just assume that me getting some of the vaccination stores available just now is perhaps the best, overall choice for me to make, given supply/demand logistics.

The Ark Test

For the most part, when faced with these kinds of decisions, I prefer the “Ark” test – i.e.:

If reality became akin to the movies Armageddon, Comet or 2012, would I, as I am, right now, be granted a place in the bunker or the ark?

Nope. I wouldn’t. I’m past child bearing age (continuation of species), have raised my children (not primary caregiver for next generation who will continue the species), and given my skills, talents, education level, physical and mental abilities, right now, today?

Nope – I would not be chosen to ensure the continuation of our species, our way of life, or for the preservation of our culture/art, etc.

Therefore, just because the list says so….

…doesn’t mean, I’m going to rush right out to be first in line just because it is, after all,

“MY RIGHT and ‘they’ said I could!”

I can think of so many others, in my age range, some older, some younger, right here in my community, who should get the vaccine before I do, especially, the following:

  • Primary earner’s for a household, who work lower wage, but essential jobs.
  • Those in my age group who have way more physical issues than I do….
  • Those who have vulnerable family members who cannot risk getting COVID, at all.
  • Single parent households
  • Elderly and child caregivers
  • Those who work full time in essential services AND volunteer their time for local government operations

In just the above list? I can, in my small town, think of, (I actually counted them up while thinking of them) 23 in their prime, adults, who should, if they wish to get vaccinated, should be eligible to get the vaccine before I do.

Included outside of the 23 are a couple of women I thought of, who no longer live here.

One is the widow of one of my classmates. Her children are young though they are fast approaching high school graduation.

Another 2 females I thought of right away are divorced because their husbands decided they wanted a ‘new life with their mistress’ and both have primary custody of very young children (ex is off on his new life, no time for the kiddos) AND work 1 or 2 jobs to make ends meet.

That kind of daily schedule for them, right there, makes them tired, stressed and well…immune system compromised…overall, no matter how hard they try to ‘take care of themselves’ when time and money affords them such luxuries.

I know, because I’ve lived it – and well – their teen (for one family) and very young (ages 3-5) children for the other two, shouldn’t be left without their primary parent IF it can be avoided – which, perhaps, it could be, should they be given the vaccine before folks like me.

This doesn’t make me generous or altruistic…

Lest you be led astray into thinking such things.

I do think, overall, such reasoning, in the end, is ultimately about me, and my own selfishness.

I look about me and since I also have the unique set of circumstances that allows me to greatly limit my interactions, going out and about, can work from home and have no small children or elderly in my home to care for, I would rather ‘miss my place’ in line, than LIVE with the regret should one of those ‘next phase’ or ‘should have gotten the shot this phase’ folks missed out and died.

I just don’t want to live with knowing I played a ‘part’ in that possibility unfolding. Not that I would be ‘wholly’ responsible…

But then, think about it –

Toilet Paper shortages didn’t JUST happen on the shelves because one person bought 2+ gigantic packs while they were ‘out and about’ –

It happened because MANY people chose to do so – many of whom, on their own, probably felt they weren’t doing anything to ’cause’ the shortage, themselves….

(It’s my understanding the shortages ALSO happened because so much more of the entire population was using the bathroom at home, instead of work/school/store and while those gigantic rolls of toilet paper sat in warehouses, not needed by public places, few Americans chose to say, “Sure, let’s buy that big roll of toilet paper, it will balance on the tub edge, won’t it? maybe we could move a night stand into the bathroom to hold it….but we can wipe and flush, right?” – Just saying…..)

May sound strange, or dark, to you, but to me?

Assessing the facts of matter given my own knowledge of me and those around me that are observable, and spending even the barest modicum of time thinking about possible scenarios is, to me, a portion of my own operations to meet ‘living with no regrets’.

No matter who says what, some of my regrets in life that I’ve tried hard to either do better or never repeat had nothing to do with Carpe Diem or taking a risk or going big or going home!

They simply had to do with me not thinking about what I would have to ‘live with’ on knowledge of myself, even when everything around me said, “legal, ethical, it’s your right, etc., etc.” and I took actions that at the time seemed to be in line with ‘taking care of me, so I can take care of others’ but in the end?

Were selfish selfish – I did what I wanted because, to be honest, I didn’t even spend anytime thinking about who else would be affected, really, IF many chose to do just as I chose to do….

Not all people on Medicaid, Food Stamps or Public assistance are lazy, drug heads – but all it takes is several of our population saying they are, over and over, and all the sudden, it’s accepted as ‘true’.

Not all homeless people ‘want that lifestyle’ nor did they make poor decisions and yes, perhaps they are homeless on purpose just because, they don’t want to be a burden to those they love… who may not be set up well for them to stay indefinitely at their home.

See? To me, one individual decision may or may not change all of history, but individual decisions have a way of gathering together to create unintended consequences.

There are many, many, essential workers, who are younger than I, that provide more important services than I, who also, given statistics, have many more years of contributing to their communities, the GDP and tax base to provide public services, than I do.

So whether you are ‘equality of life’ for everyone liberal, or a conservative who focuses on the deficit, our economy, etc. – well – yes, I’ve generally, overall, thought of most of this stuff.

And if you’re of the guru-self-improvement happy-wappy set – do not EVER think I do not value myself or actively suicidal.

I have, for some time, here and there, and more as the years have gone by, become more attached via my experiences, observations and learning more, to at least ATTEMPTING to do my best to be a ‘3rd party observer’ of my own choices and passions – which, for me means only one thing to ask of myself evereyday – and be honest as I can hope to be with myself: “What am I producing and what am I consuming? And is my production efforts coming close to my consumption efforts?

β€œThere are no solutions. There are only trade-offs.”

Thomas Sowell, A Conflict of Visions: Ideological Origins of Political Struggles

I must be honest with myself AND you…

Or, just now, as much as I can be, even while I might be lying to myself… and you…

What? Why are you surprised? You know I LOVE brain studies, sociology, psychology and history – human beings are ACES at lying to themselves, over and over! Sheesh! I’m human, thus, I have the potential to be a world class liar at birth – just saying…

Part of my thinking also includes, the fact I have never fared well through winter flu season overall, but often, WORSE! the years I got the flu shot.

While it is true, through a unique set of circumstances, I contracted Swine flu at work, which turned into pneumonia, which turned into pleurisy and waited out the agonizing months while the tendons I had ripped out in my sternum area healed from the rips caused by coughing….the year I didn’t get the flu shot….

That was the worst year and I’m still not certain getting the flu shot that year would have made a difference – because, for me, it’s over and looking back to that year to see if the discussions regarding ‘well, missed the boat on that one didn’t they’ regarding which strain to vaccinate for, that particular year, may have been updated by more data and perusal, since last I tried to assess to see if I was a fool for NOT getting the shot that year….

But, that year, I was considered in my prime, was not working at a place I felt was high risk area for contracting flu, employer didn’t require/provide /demand and que-sera-sera – I made my choice and then lived with it.

The 4 years winter seasons of my life I did get the annual flu shot never really turned out that well either…

From the 1993 initial massively swollen & painful arm that an R.N. girlfriend of a co-worker said, “Um…you should go to ER, that is not a usual reaction to shot…”

To which I replied, “Yeah, I called. They told me to quit whining and it will fix itself in a day or two.” and..then turned back to do my job, even while I glanced at the clock to see how long before I could go home and ice the sucker and drink enough beers I didn’t care how bad it hurt….

All the up way to the other 3 years where the following conversations took place sometime in December – March, after getting vaccinate in October:

“Yes, doctor, I had the flu shot – I got sick last week, felt like a head cold – didn’t catch it in time with self care, fluids and rest, so now I have (bronchitis/pneumonia) and just give me the pills/write the note so my boss knows I went to the doctor, ain’t faking it and tell him and me when I can return to work without infecting others, please….”

The second part of True Confessions portion of honesty….

Is the fact I have, off and on, been a smoker since I was 16.

Although I have quit various times – ranging from 3 months to 6 years, or got myself weaned down to 3-4 cigarettes a day…which is ALMOST quitting without becoming Attila the Hun given nicotine withdraw….

I am, in fact, a smoker – even when I quit.

I’ll always be a smoker, whether I’m smoking right now or not.

I smoked for a time, thus, I’m on the ‘list’ of ‘smokers, it’s required on any insurance, or health care providers intake form and no matter which perusal of societal thinking, service providing, taxation or legislation you look at, they will all at one point or another, inform you through verbiage or higher costs, that I’m a smoker and in the end, I deserve whatever I get/happens to me and I have only myself to blame.

Long ago?

I was very disappointed to learn a much older friend, whom I liked and who had been a mentor to me, who also smoked way more than I did, who also happened to have a good job and good insurance…

….I learned he had put himself on the lung transplant list – at age 60+ ( I never really knew how hold he was – for all I know he could have been 80…)

To my way of thinking? He wrecked his lungs purely due to his own choices (not inherited diseases, like cystic fibrosis, although it could be argued the ‘craving for nicotine’ or ‘susceptibility to lung issues due to smoking’ are, ultimately, a portion of what we are born with…)

I Just couldn’t understand it.

He had lived 60 or so years of life, and lived it hard – – worked 80+ hour weeks, ate whatever he wanted, gained weight and didn’t work out for ‘health’, drank whiskey neat anytime after lunch, smoked like a choo-choo train for most of his life since age 11…etc.

Well, okey-dokey then – didn’t he just shove 120 years of slow lane hits to his body into 60 years of fast lane living and well….

Hadn’t he already won the bet with his doctor that he wouldn’t make it past age 45???! Hadn’t he bragged about that over and over?????

I held him in such high regard in so many other areas of life and work that he navigated with brutal honesty towards others and himself, and while I knew I would miss him, didn’t want him ‘gone’ anytime soon, I confess to silently being really disappointed in him for failing to pay the piper when the bill came due via his own resources.

I RARELY ask WHY on Death

Especially when an adult is older than 60 – or a child born early and given 19 surgeries to ‘live’ in the first few years of life, and not expected to live past age of 10, dies at age 23.

I don’t ask why someone diagnosed with cancer, told ‘we can only manage it’ dies 3 years after the doctor gave the ‘time frame’.

I just don’t. On these fronts?

Any time past the ‘expected’ is, to me…time that was gifted and appreciated.

I do, however, still ask ‘why’ when a child or a nursing mother starves to death – what can be done about that?

When a homeless vet dies of hypothermia or by his own hand, on the streets

When an otherwise healthy teenager choose suicide over living another day –

IF I’m going to ask why, understand, try to change what I can, I focus on the things that I hope a change in the human heart, systems we build and understanding of such things might lead to better outcomes –

I do not question ‘why’ if I should die tomorrow – or tonight –

I’m a smoker, have had a stroke, have been ill enough enough times in my life it was ‘touch and go’ and well?

I’ve been living on ‘extended’ time, from my view, for quite a long time – thus, signing up in some mad rush to preserve my own life awhile longer, well…rather doesn’t seem right or fitting for me –

Thanks for listening while I debate with Myself!

After Writing this all out – I confess….

I’m still Undecided…

I surmise I won’t be trying to line up on first day, this coming Friday (March 19th) and the man-child roommate and I already had the initial discussion, given he is the closest, most affected individual should I contract/die from COVID, for a variety of reasons…

He said,

“Mom, do what you want to do/feel is right”

So, for now? Given his tossing the ball back into my court?

I’ll be ‘pondering upon’ this decision for just a tad or more while longer…

Hope this finds you and yours well.

13 thoughts on “Decision Time arrives….Early!”

  1. Sorry to hear you have had snow and storms… Hope you are all well over there…. I am in my sixth decade lol.. had three letter invites and Not going to be a guinea pig for big pharma profits.. Full stop!… Don’t know if you heard over there but 18 countries so far have suspended one of the jabs… Too many side effects.. I go on the government own yellow card system of adverse side effects.. stats are shocking!… I hear even the CDC have changed their figures now on mortality rates..
    MY body My Sovereignty…. My Health my risk.. but when you know that 98’4% recover and most don’t even know they have it… Seems to me as we know.. Something more going on than our health safety…

    More people are dying from Lack of care, the stopping of their cancer treatments.. suicides… mental health is through the roof..
    When you understand the figures of Malaria in Africa.. and you compare … That should be a Pandemic..

    “In 2018, there were 228 million malaria cases that led to 405,000 deaths. Of these 67per cent (272,000) were children under 5 years of age. This translates into a daily toll of nearly 750 children under age 5. Every two minutes, a child under five dies of malaria. Most of these deaths occurred in Sub-Saharan Africa. Since 2010, mortality rates among children under 5 have fallen by 39 per cent. “

    Do your research and look into Moderna… and what it says it is doing.. this is not a vaccine in the normals sense.. Do your research before you make your decision PLEASE!!!!!

    Love and Hugs my friend ❀


    1. Hello Sue! So good to hear from you.

      Yes, I believe the benefits vs. risks are, often, on vaccine/treatment fronts a personal decision for each person. I am due soon for my ‘annual’ exam/touch base with a healthcare provider who understands my desire to do as much as I can via ‘layers’ of nutrition/self-care modalities, and I fully expect for her to hear my concerns given my prior experience with other vaccines and I trust her to guide me/be honest with me her knowledge and expertise, on what ‘course’ is best for me, my history of ‘not faring well in my adulthood’ with various seasonal vaccines and I shall go from there. I have spent times during my life where I did NOT have MD’s that I felt I was a ‘partner’ in healthcare with, but I’m very happy with the her and felt heard and do not feel she ever ‘counsels’ just because – she shares the stats, she looks at my history and well – we discuss ‘where do I go from here?” and I sometimes disappoint her in how ‘fast’ I manage to make needed changes, but I never feel disregarded or ‘talked to as if I were the village idiot/child’, either – :D. So I’m very lucky – Most of this post was regarding my own ‘back and forth’ in my mind, on all the ‘perspectives’ I see – from various conversations going on around me and with me.

      There continues to be much politicization and divisiveness on numerous fronts, here, even in my small ‘friends/neighbors’ circle, regarding the COVID vaccine, vaccines in general, etc., and well – the decades of various times where ‘oops! that ain’t the miracle pill we thought it was’ recalls – there are many, many, reasons for each person to individually weigh the concerns/risks/benefits with their healthcare team and based on their own body/lifestyle/beliefs –

      I guess mainly, some of my own ‘arguing with myself’ after I was told by someone who loves me, “Nope, you should go in, right now and just get it” and I thought – well, on the whole spectrum of consideration, really, does it make sense for me to race/elbow myself to the front of the line?

      Which is why I chose to share my ‘inner decision’ process, publicly, because, well – overall?

      Despite all the various cultural/online media/psychology/sociology articles, and political platforms, etc., that tell me I’m ‘wrong’ to believe such things…

      I STILL wish to believe, or do my best to believe, that deep down, each human HAS THEIR own REASONS for why they land hard on one side of the “Yes/No” side of the ‘answer’ on not only this, but many, many other topics in our world – and often, I figure, their decision is based on MULTI-Faceted reasons, for them –

      Just as it is for me – –

      I’ve been increasingly intrigued… concerned? Curious? by the steadily increasing number of articles/blog posts etc., that seem to be written just make the point that humans are not really ‘rational’ beings, about how bad we are at, often, making really good, based on facts, evidence and zero emotional input at all, decisions for long term health and happiness for either ourselves, the ecosystem and biosphere we share with other living things, or navigating/updating/moving in the right direction of decisions, for our humanmade systems (governing, trade, economics, etc.)

      That said, many who ALSO love me, get frustrated with me and my pondering – they think I would be happier if I just ‘did what I should, not think so much, forget past times my own or historical figures made decisions, that once acted upon, didn’t turn out well for the individual OR many, many living things –

      My blessing and curse? I have a fairly decent memory on stories, though I often have to refresh my memory on ‘facts’ – i.e. – in the storm of 2019 – my journal/blog post refers to going without ‘coffee’ for 25 hours, however, my memory says my power was off for nearly 3 days (72 hours) I remember brewing up extra coffee and putting in thermoses to keep warm, early on in the storm, but now I question just HOW long, exactly, my power was out! Sigh – and kicking myself for only jotting down how long I went without coffee! (I do remember reheating the last bit left in the thermos, once it was past lukewarm and I just couldn’t drink it down, cold – LOL)

      I figure, here and there, there are many others who feel as I do, ‘on the one hand’, but ‘on the other hand’ and well – in the current climate of the conversation? Thought it might be good to share my own ‘decision making process’ – so those folks, if they FEEL alone, in their thoughts, learn, “nope, ya ain’t the only one” – because over and over, here in WordPress land? I read so many posts and comment threads, where ‘just realizing’ one isn’t struggling with this/that or the other, alone, well – it does HELP some – on the mental health/emotional health levels AND it helps folks find the ‘safe space’ with others, to ‘discuss’ it with – when they may feel as if they have no safe space in which to share their worries/concerns/struggles. πŸ˜€

      Re: eradication of disease – there was a story back last year, when questions were coming up on WHO funding and why the USA was paying so much while other countries weren’t and I failed to bookmark it (durnit!) but it highlighted the ‘member country base contributions’ to WHO work AND the ‘voluntary’ contributions that are made in excess of ‘base share in payments’ – Voluntary contributions can be earmarked/specified as to ‘what’ they get spent on – base contribution shares by member countries cannot be – and well – I can’t remember, but because ‘base’ contributions overall haven’t kept up with other rises in cost, fronts, etc., they listed a couple of diseases they once had hoped to reach eradication on, but are starting to lose ground on – I believe one of them was tuberculosis – so yes, there are many, many things – that kill steadily, many, or result in long term health impacts that leave those who didn’t die, not as strong and more susceptible to even more things – – This article from 2017 listed WHOs hope to eradicate Measles by 2020 – But given the Dec 2019 article at WHO, the 2018 assessment concluded eradication is under serious threat: that said, not so much now? But in my youth/early adulthood – many mentors/family members in my family knew one or more ‘polio’ survivors that never really fully recovered or were able to live a full/productive life, those who died from measles/mumps and many of those same folks, were the those who pushed back hard, when the no vaccine movement started growing, even while, they truly ‘heard’ the concerns of the parents of their grandchildren/great-grandchildren – such topics and decisions, have, to my observation, caused huge rifts in family units, even before COVID showed up – so again – sorry for long reply – but I continue to be cursed by ‘memory of this, memory of that’ and ticked at myself for not bookmarking that article properly that I DID read last year, so I could link that too, as it was a more current, all in one, overview, of what is on track for eradication, where we aren’t even close AND where we were on track, but now losing ground due to finances, resistance to treatment or the wrong implementation of treatment protocols in a way that is ‘doable’ by those who are provided free/low cost treatment (if no clocks, and exact calendar date time is not KEPT, culturally or within the very poor population, how do you ensure, “okay, you need to take this at the same time (each day/each week/ etc.) until it’s gone” – so many things come together to impede progress on many fronts – that we may collectively wish for – quickly – πŸ™‚

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      1. At the end if the day you have to do whatever is what you feel best for you. As I do for me. But I wouldn’t be a friend if I wasn’t concerned.
        Sending lots of love … Just listen
        to what your Heart is really telling you not what others think is best .
        Hugs your way. β™₯️

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        1. I listen to and read things that often, do not have my ‘best interests’ at heart – but are said/written for other reasons – that said, I wait not for validation/approval – I only explore to ‘check my own blindspots/hidden spots’ when I’m aware many around me hold vastly different views – – just like I check my blind spot when driving/passing – just one more ‘double-check’ before I dart over here to do this”. LOL supposedly, that double-check time is purported to cut down on the number of ‘oops! ACCIDENTS” that happen. I remember my Dad saying, after one traffic accident I was in, that really, rather defied any known ‘for sure could have been avoided by any means” that wasn’t my fault, telling me, “sure, many could be avoided, but well – there are true ACCIDENTS that no one conceivably believed could happen – that’s why we have the word, Accident’ LOL – – simplistic, I know, but I do try to listen, hear the sides/perspectives. Still sad that so many around me believe I am ‘waiting for permission/seeking validation’ when I do such things – but it is what is – and well, if I didn’t want to hear what folks ‘thought’ about the topic? i wouldn’t ask/post – regardless of what they offer as their perspective – simply because one thing I HAVE learned! If you know you’re set on doing such and such, no matter who says what, no sense asking a question you suspect you won’t like the answer to” – or the flip side, of lawyer lingo, “Never ask a question you don’t already KNOW the answer to” – see? LOL. Thanks for your reply – and our convo – LOVELY to see you up to being here again and LOVELY to ‘chat’ with you – grateful for that! πŸ˜€

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        2. Always good to chat my friend.. I have done alot of investigation and know of four people local to me. One on our street whom I am friends with, put them in hospital after the first shot.. My friend across from me on our street works in the hospital.. She had her first shot, and said she is not going to have second. Because lots of her colleagues also had reactions one that was really bad and she is still hospitalised.. None of this is MSM. …. I have been on our gov web site and its there in your face the amount of reactions… Just saying.. πŸ™‚ lol….
          Sending Hugs and always here for a chat.. ❀ ❀

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        3. I didn’t question your info shared – at all – the same story showed up, I believe, in this past week, on some European countries pulling one vaccine of the shelf due to ‘clotting issues’ – I clicked further, EVEN though the vaccine was not distributed or approved for use here in USA, because, well, I’ve had a stroke – and ‘clotting’ issues are a red flag for me to ‘ask many more questions’ whether its’ failing to clot or clotting too MUCH, issue – – again – decisions and reasons for everyone – me, you, the country/geographical region we live in, the ‘vaccine’ available to us to take, the risk/side affects, etc. :). Last year? When so many in my neighborhood questioned the extent of the ‘pandemic’ and chafed against strict restrictions for business, all while, I had friends & family in urban areas/other areas of the country who were on duty in healthcare fronts, or had lost a loved one to COVID, etc. We can watch the news, read/learn/investigate online, etc., but at the end of the day, at least for me? Most of my most valid information comes from those who say/said, “Um, it doesn’t seem bad, here, but my wife’s aunt in ICU and they don’t think she’s gonna make it” – or, “Why no mask? My sister works ER in Denver and the influx of those suffering from respiratory distress/needing ICU is climbing! She’s working 18 hours a day some days – please wear a mask…” – etc. Thus far, for my family and friends who have received vaccines, here (all are older than 65 – some in their 80s/90s) no one yet has had adverse or life threatening side effects or reactions – I’m up to ‘ 14 near to me’ reports thus far – :). But again, since I don’t go out and about often, and live in lower hit area, (although the UK variant of the virus showed up here a few months ago – one of the earliest confirmed variants of it, here in US – our little rural town made national/global news! LOL – ) I’m just still, waiting and seeing – – πŸ˜€

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        4. Saw, read and replied! I wear a mask, limit time spent ‘out and about’ and well – not sure how well I’m doing on all fronts – but I’ve been out from my house only 3 times since Feb. 2nd – simply because my son had back to back strep throat infections to the point of coughing up blood and waiting weeks for his throat to heal and, for me? Strep – Covid – whatever I DON:T HAVE to go out, so why? :). Our mail box was rather overloaded when one of us made it out late at night to check when entire lobby was empty – LOL


        5. P.S. – I wear a mask where signs and restrictions mandate it – here? I can remove it the moment I’m outside – still – for me? As always was my preference? LONG before COVID arrived? “If you think you are sick, stay home until you know for sure OR feel better!” LOL – During my son’s 6 week battle trying to defeat ‘strep throat’, I find myself feeling good a few days in a row, getting work done and then? Sigh – that tickly, first ‘sign’ feeling in my eyes and nose – UH OH! Seriously, I’ve been swabbing my nose with a tea tree/lavendar oil mixture MORE times the past month than ever before! And yes (SIGH! despite all ‘mommy blogger/affiliate sales people and even ‘beginner essential oil’ articles from leaders in the essential oil industry? Do I dilute it to safe 2% level? Nope – LOL – – that said – for me? I wear a mask if posted as required on any place I enter – – if not posted? I still done it if other patrons are in store, with masks on – out of courtesy – and because, well – why not? 10-30 minutes, Max of me wearing a mask is NOT going to ‘fix’ a lifetime of ‘my bad habits/treating my body not so nicely’ and for now? I can do so – I just limit MORE when/where/how I go out and about, but then, I HAVE that freedom! I’m a work from home person – NOT quite yet, a ‘work two-3 jobs outside of the home that requires me to wear the durn thing up to 18 hours a day.


        6. P.S. there are also, in my circle, reports from some health front workers who have also said they will ‘wait’ awhile before taking vaccine’ – so – I’m reminded of an EFT Master Seminar I attended long, long, long ago, as well as ‘improve our workers’ classes employers sent me to – regarding the ‘waves’ of adoption/refusal – basically, to me, STILL broken down between Innovators, Early Adopters, Mid-Stream majority, Late Adopters, Refusal to Adopt” and those numbers, on any thing? Vacinnes, social justice, climate change, GMO concerns, air quality concerns, etc., do seem to play out along those broad lines and rarely, EVEN in ‘insta communication’ days now so many of us have access to? The movements through the various changes STILL, to me, tend to move along, at their own steady, pace, overall – on most topics – some quicker, some longer – but I see the same ‘broad generalizations’ playing out, over and over – on many fronts –

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        7. Yes 18 countries pulled out of one jab… and its not just clots in side effects… I am hearing of eyesight loss… and other affects like shaking .. Parkinson type of symptoms.. a whole range…. They have not been tested long enough and we are the guinea pigs.. .. etc… Many I know are taking it just because they think it will allow them to travel and they talk of the passport certificates etc… Many travel firms saying they cannot travel without it! We are putting badges on children here who refuse to wear a mask.. We are testing school children twice a week.. They are having temp guns pointed at their foreheads as they walk in school, is abuse..
          And its tyranny … I dont know about where you live TamrahJo.. But here we are in our second severe lockdown have been since Oct… People today have mass marched in London the towns and cities here are ghost towns.. Any how.. Enough from me… Its late here… and like you when we get a bee in our bonnet we can spout for ages lol.. Sending you love my friend… hugs… and take care.

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        8. On some many fronts, where I live? I have been spared SO many of the very much more traumatic events many others are living through – on the other hand? fear for livlihood, fear for loved ones, fear over true or perceived resources availability? I’m rather, overall, myself, surprised that hasn’t been more wide spread chaos than I learn of here and there – overall – Fear on so many fronts, does not, usually, bring out the best in folks –


  2. I guess go with your gut. I have taken one flu shot in my life and that was forced on me when I had a state job. I was told I would take the shot or they would find a way to get rid of me. The following year I directed them to inquire with my attorney. LOL I’ve never had all of these booster vaccines we’re supposed to have now, and I’m not taking the covid vaccine. I’m a healthy person and rarely get sick. I don’t understand anyone rushing in for this vaccine. But I certainly support anyone who wants the vaccine and feels it is something they must do.

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