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There Is a Reason Folks Rebel…

Some games, greed, denial and total lack of understanding plays out in our world – over and over, in, to my mind? Pure misunderstanding of the interdependent world we live in – from days of yore to today?

Understand your resources, understand who contributes what, and for the love of all that’s holy – please try your best as ya can, to not repeat the errors of the past….

Blast from the Past regarding on the Reasons Folks Rebel – I highlighted ONE durn moment, in time – with movie clip, but to me? So much shown in it?

Applies to many things that are showing up in the news, as STILL a problem – thus, perhaps I’m just being a stick in the mud and not growing, or maybe…..

“Nothing new under the sun, but for land’s sake! Can’t folks move past some of this stuff JUST to keep the conversation going with folks who are willing to have it???

The Good, Bad and Ludicrous

Yesterday evening, while secretly whining to myself over how miserable, sick and tired I was, I watched the movie, “Suffragette”.

It was HARD for me to watch…

Why?

Because I knew, in my heart, the things done to those in the movie have gone on in the past, and still happen today – not just to women, but for any group that wishes to have their own voice in making the laws they must abide with.

I have been, in my own lifetime, a ‘victim’ if you will, of such outdated thinking – 🙂  From both those who saw me as the enemy and those who thought I should have better protected myself from the enemy, cuz seriously, I should KNOW better…right?

Not EVERY single group, marching, protesting right now comprises “1/2 of the human population”

  • Sometimes, they are more than 1/2.
  • Sometimes, they are less than 1/2.

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Monday Movie & Music

Mmmmm……

Love this dialogue from the movie:

“It’s Not meant to be easy. Instead of moaning about it, give yourself permission to be inadequate, then get to work. Listen, ya can’t be can’t be good at something unless you’re willing to be pfft [raspberry] first.”

“Professor Reed?”

“Yes, Sophie?”

“It will take at least two semesters just to begin solving that”

“Oh good God, at least that!”

“And even with that, we’ll all fail the class because this is just bonkers”

“Listen guys, that is the beauty of physics. That is the beauty of life.

Physics is a slog. We are meant to work on problems our children will solve. You might find the odd solution here and there….by the way, I just got your t-shirt, it’s very clever…. But you will die before your life’s work is done.

Your cold dark husk will be rotting in the ground while generations after you will finish the work you started.

To quote the Romans, “Enjoy yourselves, it’s later than you think.”

Professor Reed, college class scene, The Adam Project

The Adam Project

Ryan Reynolds, Mark Ruffalo, Jennifer Garner and Zoe Saldana?

Drama, the ties that bind, action scenes, and non-ending themes of how/when/where we lose or way OR turn to the dark side OR chase a dream, only to learn others wish only to create nightmares?

Um YES Please!

And let us not forget an excellent soundtrack, too – here’s my two faves from it:

Let My Love Open the Door – Pete Townsend

Long Time – Boston

Hope your coming week goes well – stay safe – so many of y’all in areas facing daunting challenges from war/unrest/Mother Nature right now.

Catch ya on the flip side.

I am some, most, ALL? of this…

I first saw this movie, on VHS, rental, when I was in throes of ‘postpartum mood swings’ as my body changed from ‘pregnant/incubator of new life form being built’ to ‘okay – new life form born – get ready to go back to work and serve others at expense of time with child” – me?

Back then, I TOOK 6 weeks , unpaid leave (saved up for long vacation) after delivery, cuz I thought it was my right too without risking getting fired.

I made my way to ‘work’ my shift less than 12 hours from when my water broke – I had the baby, got back home to be a new momma within less than 48 hours from the last time I drove to ‘work’ AND less than 24 hours spent in hospital, even though – professionals said, “monitor, give drugs to speed up delivery if she hasn’t gotten with the groove by tomorrow morning – ” and then the 3rd doctor on call (my doctor, his on call cuz his day off, then on call doctor for on call doctor who was done at 5pm?) hurried scurried to come ‘deliver the baby’ at 8:23 p.m. on a Tuesday night –

Funny, I never heard nurses or housekeeping staff talking about their boundaries, their shift start/ends and or how I needed to hurry up or wait on being pregnant/giving birth to satisfy THEIR preferred schedule – see?

I’m a little ole women’s rights/realities personage, at heart – for many reasons –

I am woman – I will never meet the standard of Lady

I am female – I will never be consider femme fatale, sexy, strong, defender of home, heart, faith –

But I am a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother – and so – movies of female friendship in any time/space continue to be my faves – why?

Cuz I, too, wish for the camaraderie, support AND frankness that modern art tells me women do for each other –

But Mainly, I resonate with the quote of,

“Dammit! I AM pleasant! I saw [so and so] down at the [local grocer ] and I smiled at that Sum Biatch before I could help myself!!!

Sharing, cuz if ya publicly state, “Um, I identify with this?” from film of long ago?

Who knows how it will turn out nowadays – me?

I see women struggling, women who outlived their hubbies and have enough $ to sorta get to be rebels and women who say – “all we got is each other to lean on – ” in movies AND real life, all while I also see women throwing each other under the bus over and over in various bids to make it in what they consider a ‘on my own/’man’s world’ on various fronts – plain and simple –

DOESN’T mean I’m RIGHT, or have fall the facts, or proof or that my cares are worth more than anyone else’s struggles, but I confess my biases, empathy And judgements on a variety of topics for many –

But what if I just oversimplify it all?

What if I just say – Oh! This is older movie, representing things that may be seen as not sensitive to others now, or making light of real issues – but still, speaks to my heart on how to laugh , cry, tell your truth, works out for ya?

What happens then???

Let’s find out –

One movie – regarding:

What Society says you’re supposed to be…

Educated, interested in culture, society, trips and fun -while broadening your horizons – in the way we wish to –

When you are deep in grief and true friends make ya laugh by making fun of each other…

When someone’s feelings get hurt, but ya get over it by bench fighting –

What True Friendship & Confession of our failings really looks like

And that’s the way it is, for now – for better or worse.

I’m all of the main characters in this show – but most of all? Truth be told? I’m Ousier – in all her failings and I fear, none of of her stellar moments — I don’t have more money than god – I only had two living children that I never felt as if they were ungrateful for me being their mom, except here and there –

But often?

I think, “I’m not crazy – I’ve just been in a very bad mood for 40 years” – 😀

It is what it Is – 😀

Does this Story have a point?

Yup – somewhere – but mostly, just a point of pointing to the past, at a movie that came out and I watched that involved the death of a child when my first child was brand new – and I would grieve his going 17 years later – I mean, who says,

“Girl’s night movie’ on such themes with a new momma or a grieving momma?

My family/friends – fortunately, for me and them – I can cry and cuss all at the same time – 😀

La-La-La – Can’t Hear Ya! Dancing and singing …

Movie clip and fave song – from a circa 1980s movie –

It occurs to me in both these clips, from language through to things folks are really ramped up about, right now?

Sigh – it’ll upset folks –

I mean, like look at those high heels, and mini-skirts! Like who dresses that good/looks that good – when they are just trying to make ends meet?

This was back int the days of panty hose, too –

Seriously!

I just watched a gardening blogger say, “why does everyone talk about using pantyhose? Where do you even find those to purchase?”

Welcome to modern world when worn out/repurpose/up cycle fashion that was once demanded for women, long ago, on some fronts, became obsolete – just because – the younger generation said, ‘nope – ain’t buying/wearing’ and the older generation said, “Thank God! Will join you in your unofficial boycott – panty hose are ‘the Devil’ – -LOL

But somewhere, in online land, is a gardening blogger that seems to have no clue why folks use worn out socks/pantyhose for things, and younger ‘make our fortune online folks, counsel to use ‘pantyhose’ when all he knows is, ‘who has all these worn out things saved AND?OR if you don’t? Why even mention – cuz I can’t find a place to buy them –

LOL

sometimes I just crack myself up over the details I latch onto when, on so many fronts?

Feels as if the world is imploding, everyone is losin their ever lovn’ minds – LOL

Rebel, take your medicine, sing, dance – however it might look like – just until – ya do crash ’em up derby in real life or shoot up the neighborhood – then? Not funny and now?

Um – no help for you – you mixed up virtual reality with real reality – and maybe ya won’t get it until you, yourself, have to be on the receiving end of ‘reality’ on this front or the other –

La-La-La – can’t hear you… movie clip

*Warning – cursing/foul language to be found in this clip

Dancing in heels, mini-skirts looking great while working front line/essential/minimum wage job song

Yup, me in my biases over long time/patterns of history? I like singing, dancing and watching this music video from ‘days of yore’ as some folks dub – me?

Nothing new under the sun and still seems relevant to me –

Power vs. Force Part 2

I really rather regret talking about Power v. Force – over the years –

What the word Power entails/means to many, continually changes –

Force?

Well, most folks, despite their examples details, rather get what Force means to them – and none of it, from long term struggles to war fronts, is pretty, really –

Let’s Examine Training, Cliches and Lore, shall we??

“When someone calls upon you, do you hear them or tune them out?”

The Long Version

My Dad’s version of it – told to me early and often….over and over and referred back to over and over –

“Most folks are willing to go along with ya on a lot of things, compromise, help out when you’re in need or just meet ya where you’re at -or even do things, for your benefit, that benefits them, too

– JUST UNTIL someone tells them they have to, or threatens them with dire circumstances if they don’t – then?

Well – most folks will stubbornly do just exactly what is against their best interest the minute you demand or threaten over and over with force what they want to happen –

If the only time me/your mom called out for you to ‘come into the house/stop reading in your room, was for you to be told to do a chore, or tell you how you messed up, how often will you hear us call?

But, if one time, we say, “Tamrah!! Tamrah!!! Come here!” and when you do, we ask you to help with a chore, but next time we say, “Get ready! We’re going for ice cream!” – it makes a difference, doesn’t it….?

The Shorter Cowboy/Country Living Version

You can lead a horse to water, but ya can’t make them drink

I heard this so often in my childhood, it was well known to me, as ‘common sense wisdom’. Accepted by me, without question, no matter how old I got – – cuz no one with an ounce of observational skills really believes they can, puny human, through pure muscle, force an animal that outweighs them by several hundred pounds, and, if really mad, scared, cornered or ramped up for a fight of survival, does NOT have the raw physical power to NOT crush them flat in a heartbeat if one-on-one – battle of stubborn wills –
On the other hand – humans like to take a lot of credit for ‘docile, welcoming animals’ but I tell you this – if domesticated animal crushes the weak/ignorant in frenzy? They learned that FIRST from the human masters who forced them – I can’t help myself – it’s true – BUT it’s also true that if animals no likely me and say so? to me? I don’t care why – I treat them with respect and figure, If I push me, me, me agenda? And ignore their warnings? Um, yeah – most likely won’t turn out well for me-

The FUNNY Entertainer Version of It

“Ya CAN lead a horse to water, but ‘afore ya do, just remember what a wet horse smells like” –

Festus (Actor, Singer, Songwriter, comedian known by stage name of Ken Curtis, but to local folks/family was born/named Curtis Wain Gates. I grew up with his music, his connections in Colorado/Western music lore and then – as the comedic relief in Gunsmoke – He was a part of Gunsmoke that I loved the best – when I was allowed to stay up late enough to watch it – but over all, I loved most his records that combined comedy, humour and music all in one – which why I’m younger generation that ALSO knows who the hell the Smother’s Brothers are – 😀

What do ALL these things have in common?

Animals, humans, force, making or thinking we can make another living thing do what we want – at any point of the day – is, to me, on any front, rather ridiculous – really – it depends only on our fortitude, strength of perseverence, will etc…

So Why am I bothering to spend my free time Writing about this?

Why do I publish here, in hopes some may read, comment, connect over it, when it’s overall, in what I’ve already said or future points I’m making, with no hopes of ever changing your mind, seeing eye-to-eye on every bloomin’ thing or ever finding undying, never fails, loyalty or fleeting kudos/fealty from the ‘audience’ that may stumble across here?

Because, to me, all that I hold dear is overview encapsulated in the above –

Living things, wild/domesticated – in human form or other forms well – we all just want to survive – on various fronts – we instinctively pick up on external cues on ‘leaders’ regarding whether they will help us – our kind – survive or not –

We Primal Living Things – GET IT!

I like to believe at a very deep, instinctual level – we all ‘get it’ on friend/foe, threat/security, good for my survival/not good for me/anyone else’s survival -intuitive fronts – I just do….

And the more stuff gets forced – I really don’t care if you are brute force human, animal trainer, for public sport/economics OR a pushy human that always demands undying loyalty no matter what you may do and threatens destruction and ruin IF those you are talking to and seeking support from – don’t do what you want them to – on any front –

At the end of the day – wild, domesticated, trying to evolve, living thing??

There is a primal ‘knowing’ in all living things –

Within the places where sometimes we calm our wildness and fight responses, NOT because we are winning/can win, but simply because we understand on a primal level, “Not needed here”

And on other fronts?

Especially human ones?

“Well, I can take what I have and FORCE this other living thing into doing what I WANT, right now, too, while I’m riding high in power” –

The ugly side of selfishness and has nothing to do with survival – not really – to me…

Um, yeah – for me? For better or worse –

In All it’s Good, Bad, Ugly or Ludicrous forms?

“Fine – but before ya do – just remember what this wet horse/dog/cat smells like”

Me?

I’m a self proclaimed wet dog/horse/cat/blanket, whatever –

insist I drink from your watering hole – whether the water is poisoned, full of predators, etc., but you like everything to smell good while you do your stinky stuff…?

Um, yeah – for me?

That’s what it looks like in small and big rebellions – on civil disobedience or flt out standing my ground fronts – over and over – I don’t go specifically looking for fights, I don’t think, but you bring it to me?

Well, now?

Congrats! Ya got one!

– and I’m talking small potatoes here – on my fronts – I’m NOT dealing with massive war crimes, torture etc., going on here – for me – just death by a 1,000 papercuts if I let just let bullies have/do/say whatever they want

Especially if they count upon me to listen to them/no judge them, but spend their entire time telling me how I’m personally failing them –

Me? I have more faith in me and animals inner spirits than I do in talking, discussing, connecting, bridging gaps with humans on many fronts, just about now – in my country – cuz none of them like it when I say,

“Fine, I’m gonna roll around in this watering hole, get wet and stink up your preferences more than you wished – all while dying of dehydration” –

But I also happen to Know some Lone Wolfs, Lions and Horses in my human circle, too – and they? they nip, nudge, growl, stamp when I get lost in my own world – but still? Often?

Safest humans I am ever around – because they don’t show up JUST when I”m at my best, they also show up when I’m at my worst – AND they don’t just show up to me when they are at their best OR when they are at the worst OR when they just need help they think I”m the only person out of 7 Billion in the world that can do what they need/want, right now, in the next 2.5 seconds –

I’m very grateful for the patient, the haven’t heard from ya in awhile, those who say, “um, been thinking about this – ya got time to brainstorm?” and those who say, “It’s okay – I ain’t waiting for someone to rescue me from everything – but I could use some help…”

Again – small potatoes – but as I watch global news play out – regional/national news – I wonder – when folks ask for things and demand it it forthwith – are they even aware of how much worse they and my life COULD be? Just about now?

And I tend to love when neither of us are interested in forcing the other one to ‘do what we want’ just now , or agree on every point, our personal ‘important to me ‘ agendas

Cuz I can fight – and so too, are they capable of fighting

– in our souls – all while praying we are fighting to defend all that is inherently resilient with all living things and not just fightng for our own little wants/needs/desires?

We each hope we can ALSO do so even when put to the TRUE tests others all around us, in our living ecosystems, have had to endure, withstand, fight for survival, over and over and over with no long term relief or respite, really, ever.

Yeah – those willing to fight but also hope they are up to the challenges faced when real, never ending fights show up?

Those are my fave kind of folks – really…

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